I have been wanting to write for so long, but there’s always some distraction or something else that needs to get done. I feel myself drowning in this new position of motherhood. How do I pull myself out. How do I find some ME time? Do I wash clothes and do the dishes while the baby is sleeping or should I open my laptop and write a post or just watch a TV show… Or should I lay in bed and take a nap? Yes the struggle is real! The struggle to keep up and live my life, while at the same time being a good mom and wife is rough.
Don’t get me wrong, I am so happy and grateful that I am able to be at home with my baby. I know many people don’t have the luxury to be able to spend their full day with their kid and I am so lucky to be able to do so. I love my time with our Spawn… but why do I feel myself drowning in quicksand and not able to get myself out?
I ask myself, would I feel the same way if I were living back home? Or is it just the summer in Kuwait that’s bringing out these feelings? Am I homesick? I have been trying to pinpoint my feelings, but I am not able to get to the bottom of it.
I was just chatting with a fellow blogger about this and she said to me, do one thing at a time. This got me thinking of the YouTuber Lilly Sing – she has really great videos and on her vlogs, she started making a list of tasks that needs accomplished that day and starts her vlogs off with that and then ends her vlog with checking off what she was able to accomplish! I think this will help me be more structured and make me feel better about myself. I am a person who works better with lists and boundaries and I think this has been my problem lately. Moving forward I will try and make a schedule of things I want to accomplish and then every night check it off! I will update as the weeks go by.